sometimes i secretly wish bad things apoun my friends so that they will remember me and come to me for comfort.

I blame my friends for the stuff they didn't do.

I blame my friends for the stuff they didn't do.

I'm afraid of failure

I'm terribly afraid of making the wrong choses for college and a proffesion then widing up with little money.

I think im turning into an obsessive compulsive....I'm 14 and scared.

Ali: I'm not exactly sure why people are leaving their secrets here -- I guess folks are googling "Post Secrets." It's fine. But I couldn't let yours just go by.

Ali, I've been dealing with mental illness for much of my life. It's a hard thing to handle when you're an adult; it's even harder when you're 14. Everything's harder when you're 14.

If you think you have a problem with OCD, you need to see a professional. I know I sound like an ad, but talk to your doctor. Talk to your school counselor. Talk to someone who will listen and who can help you.

It can be really hard, I know. For some reason, it's hard to shake the idea that we can just think our way out of our problems, since they're "only" mental. But that's wrong. If you had diabetes, you'd see a doctor and start taking insulin. Mental illness is not that different.

Me, it took years before I could get myself to see a therapist. Don't wait.

im afraid of being rich again

All my friends know what they want 2 be when they grow up. But i dont and im scared that ill grow up to be nothing.

My mom used to have problems with her health.
every day i would go to school crying on the bus praying she wouldnt die on me, or wondering if she was okay. when i got home she would be fine but the next day i cry again. Shes fine know. I am too :)

I secretly wish that someone in my family or one of my friends would die, just so I could mourn their loss.

Also;;

50% of the time I lie. The other 25% I tell the truth, but I exaggerate it. 25% of the time I am too honest for my own good.

Also;;

I used to cut...

Not because I was depressed.

Not because I wanted to die.

But for the attention.

I secretly wish that someone in my family or one of my friends would die, just so I could mourn their loss.

Also;;

50% of the time I lie. The other 25% I tell the truth, but I exaggerate it. 25% of the time I am too honest for my own good.

Also;;
My boyfriend thinks that I'm not a virgin. My friends, family, and people I don't know... think I'm not a virgin...

I'm a virgin.

Also;;

I used to cut...

Not because I was depressed.

Not because I wanted to die.

But for the attention.

I hate the feeling of trust or love, makes me feel too vulnerable.

everyone knows what they want to be..except me

and i dont care

sometimes, when i think about my cat i imagine myself falling into an endless downward spiral to the bottomless pit of non existance. because she is all i have.

dear kia, dont worry about it.
i am sure you have other friends, it should be the least of your worries..seeing as some day your cat might just die, and you cant sit there worrying about not having any friends..make the move to start a new friendship or rekindle an old one.

my secret:

i like to give other people advice, becuase it makes me feel better about myself.

If I were you, I wouldn't like me either.

i get crunk off koolaid.
and when i do, i have sex with my cousin when he's sleeping. and when he wakes up, he thinks he had a wet dream.

i fuck my cousin each night when my parents arent home...we are 1st cousins and the thing is...i enjoy it...and he does too. except the only thing is...we are only 13.

also:
he got me pregnant...

and im keeping the baby...my parents think it's my boyfriend's baby (yes i have a boyfriend while fucking my cousin too).

and im not gonna tell my boyfriend about it and make him think it's his.

my family is super rich...
but i shoplift every single day...

they think im a good girl...

but they don't know about how i get drugs off the street and get PAID for sex.

they think they gave me the money, but they have no idea of the life i really lead.

my best friend doesn't know it, but i secretly have a crush on her boyfriend. she tells me all about his sex and how good he is in bed. but the thing is, i know how good he is in bed. he makes up excuses to meet up with me every other night.
also;
i'm a prostetute, and that's how i met him.

i'm a senior in high school and i have had a crush on my teacher for the longest time. he heard about me liking him, and we actually did something about it.

the thing is;
he's married, he's 35, and he has 3 kids. and one of them are mine.

it started in middle school in the eighth grade. my parents just got me a digital camera, and i told them i wanted it for a project.

the thing is i take it into the lockeroom and take pictures of the naked girls and stare at them. its my way of masturbating.

i have a crush on my best friend's mom. her mom likes me too. whenever i sleep over my friend's house, i tell her i'm gonna sleep in the living room and instead i sleep with her mom in her mom's bed.

I take my wife to nudist resorts because i like for men to see her naked, i love it.

I went to a small, Christian high school.
I used to talk to my 'cool' teacher online, until the day I found out he was jerking off when I talked to him.
I never did anything about it, and now I wish I had, because I think about it every single friggin day.
I feel dirty.
I'm terrified of my male professors.
I just want it all to stop.

I've had an eating disorder since I was in the 7th grade... I'm in the 11th grade now. At first I could control it, but now it controls me. It's terrifing...

None of my friends even know. The sad thing is that I don't think they'd care if they knew anyway.

i secretly dream of being raped...

;@ink about being with my boyfriend's best friend. Neither of them are aware of this.

I think I'm attracted to him because he reminds me of my ex, and both of them do heroine at times.

Maybe I just like dramatic relationships that end badly.

my secret:

i looked at porn over five times on someone elses computer, and they got in trouble for it. i didnt do a thing about it....

i was only eleven.

I secretly desire to pierce my eye with a needle.

Sometimes I wish I would die accidentally, just so I could have the attention of being dead.

i think about having sex with girls when i'm having sex with my boyfriend...

I'm afraid my boyfriend doesn't really love me as much as he says he does.

I hate myself so much I wish I'd go to sleep and never wake up again.

I puropsely make my bf mad to get him to break up with me. It never works and I'm glad it doesn't.

I've cheated on my the man I want to be husband 5 times. Each time it was with the same person, my ex boyfriend before him. I think I may still love him, my ex that is.
Also
Hes engaged, how perfect is that?

Sometimes when I'm driving I have the urge to swerve into oncoming traffic.

I'm not suicidal .. it's just an impulse.

Over the pass few years I been in love with my best friend...

A year before that, whenever I got online I pretended to be a different person.Someone who had a better life then me and can be open and honest and not judgemental...

later on my bestfriend found out about the person I pretended to be and fell in love with her...thing is I'm a guy and this is one secret I can't tell him...

The one Good thing about this secret is that he no longer loves her and I haven't pertended to be her for about a month now and I'm just trying to be me...and I hate it.

I wish I was raped in my bed so I would know that I was loved by someone who wanted me.

Emilee-My Dog smells really bad

Steph-My Horse eats its own poop n i like it

i sometimes want to become mute, just so i won't have to pretend to be normal anymore

I am in love with my spanish teacher from high school... The sad thing is he knows and he pretends not to... My major is Spanish... and I am going to be a teacher... He told me that I can be his student-teacher when I return... Sometimes I think he likes me too... I'm nineteen... and he is over sixty...

I secretly hate my best friend.

I Love Taco Bell more then I Love my Family

:(

I eat because I'm Fat, and I'm fat because I eat

I Get on sites like these to make me feel better

I wish I had the courage to live life and not just go through the motions.

i sucked his dick but makes fun of all the others who do it....im scared that he'll tell someone and i get laughed at...that's why i talk to him.. i hate him.....that feels so much better!!

im sixteen and have never kissed. whats wrong with me.

i only cry to love songs
cause i know i will never mean that much to anyone.

Everybody at work said I was stealing office suplies, They put up cameras and acted suspicous around me, I tried so many times to defend my good honor but they ignored me and continued to point fingers....I cried almost every day before work...I was innocent and they forced me to quit my job, now I am broke and loosing everything and I only wish they'd know how much they hurt me and my family....I loved my job and am having a very hard time finding another one...I hope they all rot in hell for ruining my life!

I Do it cause i have to...

I stay with my boyfriend because I love the memory of who he was years ago. I don't really like the person that he has become.

I'm depressed because I'm Overweight.... it bothers me that much I only have sex in the dark with my top on.

My dad is gay and he raped me.
I'm his thirteen year old son. How could he have? The worst part is, my mom knows he's gay...and she walked in on him raping me, and walked out.

The thing is... I hate my mom more.

i think that all the ppl that read these are just stupid ppl who should go to a bridge and jump off. I'm one of them.

I'm afraid to give love annother shot cause I don't want to be that vulnerable again

I secretly wish one of my friends would die just so I could give them a eulogy and be the center of attention. Sometimes I doubt my faith. I want to be spiritual and bohemian and free but i dont noe if im good enough. i worry i talk about myself too much and that i am too vain. i secretly dream of being raped and getting pregnant. this is the first time these thoughts have been anywhere but my head and i hate them even more for posting them here. i feel so dirty

I tease my brother for picking his nose, but when no ones looking I do it to

I've been with my boyfriend for two years, he has cheated on me twice, called me names and is falling in love with my good friend. My secret...I won't break up with him for the fear of being alone and never finding a man with a monster size penis like his that pleases me in all the right ways.

I secretly wish that I would get pregnant every single day....and have no regrets

I stopped hurting myself a year ago, but every day I wish that I could take a razorblade and drag it across my arms one last time.

Being an art major has made me begin to hate the one thing that has kept me sane since I stopped hurting myself.

Sometimes I don't know if I can handle it.

my friends think ive had sex, do drugs, smoke, and get drunk every weekend...but the truth is i've never done any of that and they like my better when they think i have
shows how much my friends really like me..

my friends think ive had sex, do drugs, smoke, and get drunk every weekend...but the truth is i've never done any of that and they like my better when they think i have
shows how much my friends really like me..

My father used to touch me when I was little. He has also raped at least 2 other women. My mom gave him soul custody because she had a gabbling problem. He got sick 2 years after he raped me and now he doesn't know who I am. I became a mute for two years because of him, and no one noticed. No one, not even my mother or brother. My dads friends also beat me. I developed an eating disorder, and I'm only 15. I wont cut because I'm afraid that if I die people will find out all my secrets and then I'd dissapoint them. I tried to tell my friends mom, but she called me a lier.

I'm a 72 year old War Veteran. Sometimes I wish that I would have been killed in the war, just so I don't have look down and see both of my legs gone.

I like to masturbate by imagining myself being afraid or embarrassed and then pretend that my favorite tv characters from my fav shows are helping me through it. I feel guilty about this sometimes because most of my fav characters are women, and so am I. But I'm not a lesbian.

Also:

I have a boyfriend. I tell him I love him. Only most of the time I don't sincerely mean it. I'm nervous about love because I don't like people touching me, but I want more than anything to have that.

i try my hardest to fit in and all i really want to do is stand out

i gave a guy i really like a hand job on the 3rd date because he asked me too, and he still has never kissed me.

So my boyfriend and I broke up a couple of days ago - 2 years completely down the drain. I got really drunk and smoked a lot the night we broke up and I was flooded with emotions that when I was walking over a bridge to a party; I wondered if he would miss me if I died or if he would stay at the hospital until I woke up...

I sometimes wonder, if he thinks about her...

I sometimes wonder, if he really loves me...

I sometimes wonder, why he's even with me...

I work myself to death because I don't want to think about the fact that my dad raped me over and over again when I was a kid. And then abducted me. And then the police got involved and he wasn't allowed to see me, so he stalked me for a while. And then my mum got a boyfriend who sexually abused me for two years and she would never believe me when I told her that he wasn't a nice person like she said he was. And I feel really weird, it's like I know that all these things happened to me but I can't remeber them, it's like I'm looking back on someone else's life and I'm totally detached. I think I'm cracking up. Or maybe I cracked a long time ago.
I try to force myself not to eat, partly because we have no money and partly because I like to punish myself for being such an awful person. But then when I eat I have to cut myself to punish myself more.
Isn't life fun...?!

I wish I looked more Irish than any of my other nationalities. Then the world would be easier for me to live in. I could do whatever I wanted without people acting racist towards me.

I really want to have a baby to piss off my parents but also because I really want one.

The thing is;
I'm 12 1/2

I read these and wondered how many were true...

Then I realized that I only cared about the people who didn't write like idiots.

The only secrets I have are other people's.

"I was raped."

The first time I said it out loud, I thought I was lying. But I never felt guilty. And then I started to wonder if maybe that was why I couldn't remember things when I was little.

The most disturbing secrets are the ones that are your secrets too.

I cut because I hate myself. I hate myself because I cut. The only reason they put me in therapy was because they didn't want me to kill myself. But not because they'd miss me. They don't want anyone to know what a failure I am.

I disappoint myself every day simply because of the drain on society I am. All I want is for someone to wake me up and tell me it was all a dream.

I secretly hate my best friend.

I couldn't bring myself to cry the day she died. I sobbed like a baby over a complete stranger the next day.

Sometimes I pretend to hear things or see things that aren't there, just for attention. Then there are times when I really do see things.

I am 43 years old.

I have never danced with a man.

I have only been asked out two times in my life.

And that was when I was thin.

Now I weigh as much as a panda bear, but am not nearly as cute.

And my mother asks me why I am depressed.

I hate her so much I think about taking the insulin out of her vials and replacing it with water so she would die.

I've found the love of my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with her because I love the way she smiles at me and the way she makes me feel. I love the way she loves me in return. She is everything I could ever want/ask for.

....the only problem is she's my cousin and I'm also a girl.

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Awhile ago, I lost the only two friends I ever had... not that they were good friends anyway. I hate them for it. It was so selfish of them. They hurt me so much at a time when I needed someone to talk to, someone to help me.

I met a friend on-line. I have known her for half a year. She lives across the country, so I can't see her. We love eachother very much. Sometimes I get mad at her for not emailing me or calling me. It just seems to me that she can't make time for me. Her problems are worse than mine, but I think she could still take some time out for me. There are people on-line who bash me... she doesn't stick up for me like she should and she doesn't tell them how much she cares for me. Sometimes I hate her for it. But she is all I have, so I have to look past it.

Sometimes I think she doesn't love me as much as she says she does.

Sometimes I wonder why no one love or cares about me and my children.

Im in love with a boy who likes to run out in front of cars.Im getting tired of stopping him.

My dad made me have sex with my new dog that my mom got me for christmas as he video taped it and jerked off. it made me cry but 3 days later i got a boner while thinking of it and asked him to make me do it again. we have done this everyday for over 3 years. we have had to get over 30 new dogs. but we get money off dog/human porno

i hate my best friend too.

in the past two years i have thought about suicide just about every week i have done drugs been depressed and cry just about everyday my parents made me see therypist when i was 11 i told them i did need one and that there was nothing wrong with me i hate myself and hate my sisters who have both achieved something outstanding that i only wish i would someday be able to do my secret is that i know i need the help of a therypist and now i dont have it and im scared and dont know what to do

it me again my life is going down the drain i need some help before i end my life everytime i say im good at something or i know the answer to something everyone just critizes me and doesnt beileve me why cant i be some one who acvhieves more then then the average person i want it to be over but i need help i know my sisters and my parents look down on me and i know im a big dissapointment to my entire family and i want that to change but oi dont know how someone please help me!!

I hate that i'm not special

I hate going out in public because i see all the people that i'm not, they make me feel ugly and fat.

I'm being pressured to put on weight because my mum thinks i lost too much when i was ill, i'm scared of becoming overweight

I'm being usedfor attention by a boy who i love, i cant let go because i love being with him, he doesnt even know me and doesnt care

I think i'm loosing my memory, i used to be good atschool and make people proud, i don't understand anything anymore. I'm scared of being stupid

I just want to have one thing i'm good at, i dont think i have anything to offer

I'm 15 and have had enough of life

i hate these phony fortune tellers on tv selling their "special talent"...the truth is no real fortune teller would ever do it for a profession

i predicted two almost fatal accidents and my grandfathers death from a coffee cup...all came true within a year

the reason fortune tellers never go public is not because of extortion...it is because tragedies is all some of us can seem to get right...i have sworn never to do it again

but every once in a while i want to get up and look at my own fortune...in hopes that maybe i could find something fatal for myself...i want this guilt to be over

I use pens to I masturbate

Whenever I'm not with my boyfriend I fall back into the depression he got me out of.

I smile to stop from crying
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I have molested many of my younger cousins
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I enjoy the comments that talk about sex with parents or brothers or rape or ...
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I want to be suicidle but am afraid of death
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I want to die and see everyone mourn for me at my funeral.
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I'm afraid of failure more than the average person
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I want to be mormon (like my dad's family) b/c i miss that side of the family and how it felt to be young
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I was in beauty pageants when i was little, if i would have stayed in them i would be thin...not like now.
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i like reading other people's secrets...it makes me horny
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I can't remember if i was molested
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I love a boy, but i would have sex with my 11th grade science teacher in a second
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I wish that I would become so sick that I could never leave my bed again, just so I didn't have to go to classes.
I have no idea what I'm doing with my life.
I really like my ex-boyfriend even though he is a slut and hope we hook-up again.
When I have sex I have no emotionaly attachment to the other person.
I've had a threesome, but I can't even remember the other guys face.
I love God, but I enjoy sex too much to stop.
I've never done cocain but I've always wanted to try.

Sometimes i wish i could run forever and never stop...

I hate my daughters father for being in her life. sometimes I wish he would die so I could keep her to myself.

I hate my daughters father for being in her life. Sometimes I wish he would die so I could keep her to myself. I hate pretending I don't mind her going to visit him and his wife.
I also amd happy my sons father has nothing to do with him. I am glad that he is a deadbeat father.

I dint give my son his fathers name because I was afraid I would h ate my son as much as I hate his father

I have nine guinia pigs becasue i can no longe have children.

I want to die but I have to many people depending on me.

sometimes i wish I was born to another family...and that I've never knew the one i have...

I prefure my dream world, where I'm happy and loved, to the real world, where I feel nothing.

I prefure my dream world, where I'm happy and loved, to the real world, where I feel nothing.

i just want to be happy. and no matter how hard i try i cant. i fake the smiles, i fake it laughs, then only time im truly enjoying myself is when im with my best friend. my dad saw on my web page it said i was bi. it was a joke but he got mad and told me to change it. now i secretly want to be just to get back at that bastard. most of my friends are gay and he loves them but he cant deal with me even joking around. i wish he'd accept me in whatever i choose to do. why cant he get over it. in all i dont feel loved. at all. and it kills me. i cry my self to sleep each night. i know other people have way worse lives but its hard to handle. and i find im most like my aunt who is in a mental hospital. my family just wants to put her in there for good. abandon her. like a dog, locked away. they lock her in there because she tries to commit suicide. i love you kathy and if they tried to lock me in there i would try to commit suicide too. wow this does make me feel better, like someone cares...

I'm terrified of dieing alone,
I haven't been happy since my mother died,
I was nine when it happened.

I've never used this nick and so far as I know, the e-mail address I provided is phony. But my IP address might identify me as a regular reader. But then again, it might not.

Cancer changed my life on 3 different occasions.
Now I want to save the world.

I'm 16, all my friends have or have all had boyfriends. I had one...I never saw him outside of work.
I've never been kissed, even the one girl in my group who hasn't had a boyfriend has been kissed (but I guess were the same, shes been kisses i haven't I've had a boyfriend she hasn't)

I sometimes sit there and wish that I was the center of attention

I used to cut for attention...now I cut because I can't live without it

Sometimes I wish I had an eating disorder so I was skinny...even though everyone says it looks gross, and anybody who says it gets yelled at by others who have one...

I made myself 'depressed' and I know it...I made myself hate all the things I loved because I wanted to be the girl who was depressed and wrote emo stuff everywhere...but now I hate that girl...

I used to get straight A's at school...now I'm failing...I feel like a failure...I hate the fact that my parents grounded me for not handing in one assignment...it makes me see how I was there perfect child...and now I'm there perfect child gone wrong...

I hate myself for all these things...

I live with my dad and is girlfriend,
She hates me I know she does,
I hate her too,
But I love to play with her granddaughter,
I wanna die,
The scars on my wrists,
They refuse to fade,
I'm only 14.

Sometimes i just wish i was the most beautiful girl so i could get ALL the guys attention and ALWAYS feel good about myself.

im 18
and the only kiss i've ever had
was from my gay best friend on my birthday
on a dare
that was 11 months ago
i pretend the reason that i don't have sex or go to clubs or have a boyfriend
is because of my religion
but its because im fat and ugly and i won't stand to be around black guys even though i'm black because my father made me hate them
and i wanna fuck my french teacher
but so does everybody else
and they're all more beautiful than i am
so i just obsess about him
and pretend he loves me
hmmmm

I'm 17, and I just found out I have Genital Warts.

Oh, joy.

Everyday I come home with another guy from school.
I use protection, but I don't even care. My parents don't care. And I DON'T EVEN WANT THEM TOO!!!!!!!!!!

;)

My dad sexually abused me when I was little (from around 4 to 7 yrs old i think) i didnt always remember or realize what happened. Memories and details r all so hazy. I'm so confused. I hate my dad but I hate myself more. I don't trust any adult men and it throws me off when someone is nice for no good reason. I overeat all the time and use to cut myself. My dad doesnt know i know. No one does. I know other people who've been thru so much worse, but i cant help feeling bad for myself b/c of what happened, and also empowered by surviving it. I'm 14 but sometimes i feel like i'm 1000 yrs old, like my heart is a corpse, i'm the ghost of someone who never got a chance.

i wish i had one true friend, but right now i can't trust anyone

I have two children, They are both my brothers but everyone thinks theyre my friends.

I still have dreams about my x.

Dido

I tell everyone I am gay so girls try and convert me.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!

I'm in love with my best friend.
I would do anything to be with him.
He's twice my age.
He's Married.
He's my Pastor.

i fall in love to fast, and it always scares them away.

I wish I could fall in love with someone who would never hurt me.
Although, I feel that will never happen.

I sometimes think I'll be a virgin forever.

I'm gay.

And now nobody knows it but you.

i want to be the other twin. i'm 18, never been kissed, had one boyfriend (who is now gay) and could possibly be obssesed in love with my once-best fried who i rarely talk to but think about all the time. i wish that one of my closest friends would die so that i could mourn them and have a legit excuse for being depressed.

i used to flip out and get all emotional with my boyfriend when i was bored to see how far i could go without him leaving me. when he stayed with me i felt loved, that was the only was i felt it. when i told him that i did this once he got really upset and left me.

I hate my sideburns. Im a girl, and even tho ppl tell me they are not that bad, I never wear my hair up coz they are long and not nice.
:S

I Hate being in public.
I always feel like im not good enough for everyone...

I have always plagerized all of my papers all through high school, I just got caught for one and they think it's my first time.

I don't care anymore.
I have no emotions except anger
I am unable to cry.

I am friends with benifits with my best frineds little brother. We have even made out on my best friends bed.

I have only been kissed by one boy, last year. Ever since we broke up I have been obsessed over him. I love him so much, but I'm too afraid to work up the courage to ask him out again, even though I think he likes me back.

The problem? I have a new boyfriend, who I don't love or even like. The only reasons I'm going out with him is because he loves me so much, and I'm afraid the boy I love will never love me back. I'm afraid of being alone.

My other secret? I would cheat on my boyfriend with the person I used to go out with. I'm a bad person :x

(I know these aren't the best secrets but I HAD to get them out. I'm too afraid to tell anyone.)

I found a lump on my vagina about a year and a half ago, and i'm too scared to get it checked out. I told my boyfriend and he got so upset, then i found a lump on my breast and pretended it was the one i was talking about before. I went and got that one checked out, and it was nothing. But my boyfriend said 'if it had been cancer you would have been riddled with it by now, you terrify me'. He doesn't know about the other.

The bad thing is, i don't care about dying, i'm just so guilty for lying to him.

i had a dream about me killing somebody...
my dream came true last night.

im sorry but im afraid do go to bed

I dumped my last bf because he ignored me and he started not coming home at night... my new bf is acting the same way now. I'm not sure if something is wrong with me or them. My ex now pays more attation to me than anyone now I want him back.

i never learned how to ride a bike

I hate myself... I hate myself for hating myself. It's a cycle I don't want to be in. I'm a failure at what I do. I can't succeedno matter how much i want to!

some of the people on here are sick...everyone has secrets....but common now...what the hell is this world coming to...the only secrests i have are secret crushes or little lies....u people are fucked...

my secret is that putting you people down..made me feel like a better person. sorry

i phone sex lines when my girl is out and replay the conversations in my head when we have sex

I have to reassure myself everyday that i didn't deserve what he did to me....

I lie. A lot. Even when I don't have to.

and I'm really, really good at it.

I imagine being raped cos its what i deserve, i want it to hapen so much, maybe then I'll have a reason to cut my wrists.

Some of you people need serious help and fast!! Don't waste your time telling the your secrets on here---- seek professional help now! And a specail note to VAIN*** : How in the hell can you want to be suicidal and want to die so you can watch everyone at your funeral? Since you're afraid of death and all that it really kind of defeats the purpose don't ya think?

I hate college. But everyone thinks I love it, and I never tell them the truth. I never will.

I am in love with my coworker.
He is 10 years older than me, and I think he feels the same way.
I am 16.

Every day, i wonder what what would be worse

throwing it out there

or never saying a word.

Hey chainsaw!

Do you not understand that sometimes these people telling their secrets will help them a hundred times more than "seeking a professional" If you don't have any problems good for you. Leave themm to do what they need to help themselves. They don't ignorant poeple like you commenting on their lives.

im a disney princess!
&
i hope you guy's feal better
HAVE A NICE DAY!

I have to feel loved to function.
I've done some bad things to feel loved.
I don't care if you're pretending.

I don't know who I am. I just make myself up as I go along.

i read everyones secrets just incase I might find someone with a wrose life and realise how good I have it...sometimes it works other times it just makes me feel wrose...kinda screwy in my head...I think I have a heart problem and I dont no what to do...not scared to die...but scared because I dont no who really cares or cared.

I keep secrets from my best friend... but i would have no problem telling a stranger.

I read these to make myself appreciate my life so much more than I already do.

I listen to NPR.

me and my ex-boy friend went out for a month.
i lost my virginity to him.

then he raped me.

he said he was sorry.
&almost a year later,
none of my friends believe that it ever happened.

my ex-best friend jumped me for "lying" to her.

..i only went out with him to forget about being gay.

i make up social&family problems.
i'm losing track of who i told what to.

i feel like it's all going to blow up in my face.

i only do it so i don't have to talk about what's really wrong.

everytime i see a car i hope it will veer off the road and kill me.

my friends rely on me. they tell me their problems and come to me when they are crying. they trust me.

but i couldn't care less about their issues.

i had a caring family, outstanding friends, good grades, a lot of skills, money and a great personality.
something i should of been happy to have.

but i gave it up for drugs.

now i have nothing.

each time i make a mistake there always big ones, because their always so big i wish something bad would happen to me so i feel that i have gotten paid back for my mistakes.

Some days my boyfriend says we are gonna get married...we have gotten very serious. I love him more then anyone could ever love another person...but some days he only wants to do sexual stuff and i feel like he's just using me...part of ym thinks the only reason he says he loves me is because he wants a mother more then a girlfriend...because his mother died a few months ago...i feel like a bad person for being mad at someone going through that much...worst part is, we are only 13, theres so much more time that i have to deal with this

Everyday I cry and tihnk abou dying. Everyday I think so much and I write, and use words like garrulous. My IQ's 180 and I wish I was stupid, so I could be happy.
But that's not my secret. The thing is, I'm getting low 70's and 60's in school, and I'm tohught of as the bitchiness loudest and most optimistic person in the world.

They told me I couldn't act...

I am afraid I am going to go crazy when my dad dies.

im in love with my best friend and i tell everyone that we fool around when we've only kissed once.

i tell him i want to meet his new girl friend and i am happy for him when in reality.. im just scared if i dont try to be friends with his new girl friend i'll lose him forever.

i changed the cigarettes i smoked to your brand.
i smoked pot because you did.
and i wore blue because its your favorite

I want to kill someone just to know how it feels, and know I could get away with it.

I'd like to think that at least that might make me feel guilty. Because I never think I've done anything wrong... I feel justified for everything I've done.

Just not good about it.

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side note: I hate copy paste....

Even though I try, I can never seem to not look like a fool.

I am in love with the perfect man, but sometimes I wonder if he really loves me as much as I love him. And if he is compairing me to his X

I used to cut, and still.... slightly do....and I have an eating disorder. No one knows but me, and you.

everytime I'm laying in my bet alone at night. I dream about having a baby just because it would piss my mother off more.... I'm 16

My boss is $#@%ing psycho and I hate my job more than anything. I hate nutjobs, specially psycho ones. All they can do is $#!t on people.

I yelled at my boyfriend for cheating on me but in relatiy i was cheating on him with 2 guys.

We use to touch eachother just to feel what it was like... she was a girl and so was I... I was at the tender age of eight and she was seven. It went on for years and since the day I moved to the opposite side of the country I've been afraid to call her... It's been well over six years since I've heard from her, and I still dream of what she may be like.

i took my dads car out b4 i got my liscense and hit another car and my sister took the blame for it

i am obsessed with postsecrets.
go there now.
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i have so many fucked up situations in my life- but it makes me laugh, not cry...

i don't know what exactly i want from life. mostly for it to be over.

i have this deep sort of paranoia that i was raped as a small child, but i have nothing to back it up. just this niggling fear in the back of my head.

i wish that JUST ONCE i could feel like my parents loved me.

parts of me are so scared of being different it makes me sick. i guess i'm just more afraid of being the same.

most days i wish i could just go to sleep and never, ever wake up.

.........................
i'm sorry for wasting your time.

im in love with my best firend, he has a boyfriend. I kno he doesnt love me like i love him, but a girl can dream righ?

im not planning for my future because i dont think i should have one...i think he should have killed me when he raped me, but he didnt so now im living a life thats not mine. it feels so wrong. im sad.

i feel like i'm going to explode with all my secrets.

i know i wouldn't like him anymore if he liked me back.

Hi i know what my boyfriends msn e mail name is. It is time2duel@msn.com i am only haveing it posted so here it is

i was raped when i was little, i blocked it out so much i cant remeber most of my childhood. it makes me sad to think about it because i really have no idea what i did for the past 9 years of my life. I blame him for it all. i wont block out today tho, today as a good one.

I pee in the shower sometimes....well most of the time.

I told my friend I had an eating disorder
and I made him promise not to tell.
he did anyways
so I said I lied.

I didn't.

I'm fourteen. I wake up everyday and wish I could go away. I'm to weak to even bother cutting anymore. So apathetic that I don't write poetry anymore.

I've wished to die, just to see how all the people I loved who never loved me back would react.\

I'm in love with my best guy friend.
he loves my best girl friend.

I've had three friends die in the last 5 months.

I'm failing at least one of my classes.

I started cutting myeslf again. My mom saw the bandages and I told her that I cut myself while I was carving out a print for one of my art classes.

I really just want to fall asleep and never wake up.

I cry just for the attention.... I am in love with my enemy... and i am secretly Bisexual

i know i'm bisexual, but i think i might be flat out lesbian. i told my mom about what i thought, and she said that she didn't think i was. it hurts when she tells me that my feelings and/or thoughts are wrong. i used to cut a lot, only a little now, and i used to have an eating dissorder, somewhat do now, i just want someone to love me

i know i'm bisexual, but i think i might be flat out lesbian. i told my mom about what i thought, and she said that she didn't think i was. it hurts when she tells me that my feelings and/or thoughts are wrong. i used to cut a lot, only a little now, and i used to have an eating dissorder, somewhat do now, i just want someone to love me

i'm only 16

He robbed me of my childhood at the age of 7. Now for 13 years I've been sleeping in the fetal position hoping he won't walk through my bedroom door, wanting to rob me again. Because of him, I could never enjoy the touch of a man, I'm always numb and sometimes I feel like I'm incapable of loving.

If you someone a christmas card with a robin on it it means you don't like them. The bigger the robin/more robins shows the amount you dis-like them. I get satisfaction sending robins to people who have annoyed me at some point durring the year. Not many people know about this, but its catching on fast in stowmarket, Suffolk. Luckily I haven't received any but when I see them in other peoples house I laugh!

Me and my girl have had sex more than 1,000,000,000 times in the last 36 months

I make stuff up so I can have an attachment to people and i like the attention. Sometimes I pretend that I have a dead sister

I'm not sure if I believe in love.

Sometimes I make gay jokes with my friends....they don't know

There's this girl, I make out with her all the time, she's a lesbian, I feel ill everytime i do it because I think she is unattractive and I know my friends would be grossed out if they knew that sometimes it IS willing...

I seriously think I'm addicted to porn

I almost had sex with a MUCH older guy in my living room when everyone was sleeping...just because I wanted to feel like i was straight again...and I have a thing for older men...

I posted a while back about having an eating disorder and not being able to control it.

Well, I come back here often just to read what I wrote b/c it reminds that I need to work to make myself better... So I'm not completly cured or anything, but I am trying hard to control it and to some degree I'm succeeding...

*The only thing that makes me truley happy is to see the numbers on the scale go down.
*Im scared 2 gain weight
*I have attachment issues
*I get jellous over everything
*Im so fake when im around the friends that hate me
*i wanna die at times just 2 see if anyone would really care
*im in love with my b/f and too scared 2 tell him

*The only thing that makes me truley happy is to see the numbers on the scale go down.
*Im scared 2 gain weight
*I have attachment issues
*I get jellous over everything
*Im so fake when im around the friends that hate me but i act like they r my best friends because i feel like i wont have any.
*i wanna die at times just 2 see if anyone would really care
*im in love with my b/f and too scared 2 tell him
*i know how 2 make a guy "fall 4 me" i do it often just 2 feel better about myself even when i dont give a shit about them.

my "best friend" is beautiful and popular. She lives the perfect life. Me and her were insperable since the day we met. last year i found out she was moving to the other side of the globe..the day finally came when we had our big good bye party. We sat there hysterically crying and hugging and then finally she left.
..i gotta admit i was more then thrilled 2 hear she was moving away. I was tired of feeling like shit when i was around her. I was friends with 2 be popular and be invited 2 partys.
the sad news is shes comming home 2 stay with me 4 2 weeks and im so not looking 4ward2 it

..Ive been able2 see and hear the dead since i was little. My great grandfather haunts my house and he used2 talk 2 me when i was little.There are more then 4 ghosts in my house and they all used 2 talk 2 me alot. I still see them "fly by" every now and then. I also see things b4 they happen.
..ive never told anyone because i know no one would want 2 be around me.
I also dont go 2 sleep overs because i get bad feelings when im at some of their houses.

i'm really afraid of the future. all i talk or think about is finally getting out of high school, getting away from my parents, all the things im going to do, and how school is a waste of my time and that's why i don't try. but honestly, i'm scared to death of what i'm going to do after school, especially since i'm failing. what if after school i can't do shit? what if i really do end up a bum or crack-addict. and yeah, my parent's are not the best people, and i want desperately to be away from them as soon as i can, never to speak to them after that, but what if i can't make it without them? i mean, without them fucking me up, i'll have to start ruining my life all on my own- those are big shoes to fill. i want to be a cab-driver/supermodel/humanitarian/gypsie/coffee-shop worker/writer/film-maker/photographer/actress/seamstress/rockstar/au paire/ trophy wife/etc. but what if i can't do any of that? what if i just fail? i hate where i am, but who's to say the future is any better?

Sometimes I wish I would be raped, because terror excites me and sex no longer interests me.

Sometimes I don't think you love me as much as you say.
Sometimes I know I don't love you as much as you think I do.

sumtimes i put peanutbutter on my self an let my dog lick it off

sometimes wen im bored i suck myself off

sum times i put my pecker in a toaster jus 2 c how it feel

sometimes i put pnut butter on my butthole and let my cat lick it out then shit in my hands and throw it at people

sum times i jus like 2 have sex with my step dad jim an cum in his mouth

sometimes i jus liek to fuck my mom in the ass and then suck my dads dick at the same time then after he cums all over me and my mom then i lick it off my moms tits and let my dad fuck me in the ass

wow u need sum help cuz that took alot of thinkin an if weird ass thoughts like that r goin through ur head like thatt hen u must b gay an that must b ur dream 2 do that

i was raped when i was 12 by my best friends cousin.

now, sex has no special meaning to me, i've been with over 10 guys since then...i'm only 15

i went out with my brothers best friend

but that's not the secret--

he was 27, was married with 2 kids...i was only 15

i'm the reason for their devorice.

the only reason i'm sorry is because of the kids

I've lost my virginity tonight...I'm 20 and I did it just to prove I'm normal.....
I'm fake on it since I'm 17....

I buy sweatshirts of really good colleges, and then i tell people that i go there, even though i could never get in.

I talk shit about people mainly because it makes me feel better about myself, but at least i can admit it.

im in love with her. im also afraid to be alone

I'm sorry that I treat you the way I do. I love you like no other but sometimes I feel that you want me to give all the time and You never give any for me. I'm tired of setting my self up to get hurt. I gave like this to all the others... you say you're not like them. Prove it. If you can't prove anything soon, I'm out. I'm sorry but my mind is made up.

I starve not only to be skinny, or because I don't believe I don't deserve to eat, but so for once my dad would approve of me...

A day doesn't go by where i don't want to kill myself

I love my boyfriend, and want to marry him, but i only have sex with him to make him happy... i hate sex.

Sometimes I fantasize about being abused. Is that normal?

I saw my sister have sex. I was curious so I tried it on objects and I liked it. I was 6 when that happened and I still do it. Few years later I was playing house with my friend and I don't rebebmer the rest only.... I might not be a virgin. I have no memories of my dad until I was 7
because that was when he came back from jail. I'm also told that he used to abuse my brother and sister. I'm constantly being remembered that I'm just like my dad. Whenever I get in a arguement with my family I start to break down. Because I think of my dad and that I'll become just like him. I'm now 15 and I see my dad every Sunday.

i love you so much but sometimes i feel that you dont love me back because you never call.

I'm a triplet.
And I hate my brother and sister.
Because they will always be better then me.

at midnight i kissed my friend,if only i went i could have kissed the man of my dreams

at midnight i kissed my friend,if only i had went i could have kissed the man of my dreams instead

I crave every sexual senario possible. I can't find a partner as horny as I i'm although many women say they are. I think they are afraid to live their fantacies.

I have a few...
1. I can't ever tell my dad Im gay, I'm his only biological child.
2. I stole my bestfriends girlfriend in highschool because I was in love with him and didnt want to see him happy with anyone but me.
3. I told my parents I was going fishing wit my buddies. I drove out of town and let a dirty old man use me so I could have $$$ for cocaine.
4. I blame myself for my friends dependencies, but I dont know how to help them.
5. my parents think im smart, but I paid for most of my grades.
6. I don't get in trouble because I dont get caught.
7. websites like this make me feel better about myself

when I read these I feel like some of the posts were written by my friends about me, when people laugh I know there laughing at me, when someone tells a secret I know its something about me. when see people I know doing something without me I know its because they dont really like me anyway and there greatful Im not around.

I like getting pissed on...

i pretend i am rich so people will like me